I do hates my birthday, no matter in solar or lunar calendar, it will be the most unlucky day in the year. Although this will be such unlucky day throughout the year, but I still looking forward for it, not only for those present from my parents, and those memorable events that I will not forget in my life.

I notice all this since I was in Standard 2, because I still cant remember my birthday when I was in Standard 1. My so called "cousins and friends" scolded me for what is the big deal for your birthday, and they kept on bullying me just for the reasons above. That case is in Standard 2. In Standard 3, I had my small birthday party without my dad. That is the worst birthday that I ever had. Although I was surrounded with my relatives that I hardly seen nowadays, but I just don't want a birthday without my dad. The case in Standard 4 was slightly better, but I almost have my birthday without my mum.

Story goes on as usual on the same day of every year. Almost every year on that particular day, I will sure having some problems with my friends, my family, or can be even anyone of my life.

Recently, I am having misunderstanding with one of my friends, because of some particular and small things. This start when I was not in a right mood to know that truth. I really don't know what I did that time. I don't even know is that my fault. However this things is still considered as a small secret, because the others of our friends still didn't know about this. Actually I didn't really know how to solve it. It is because I can't even help another of my friend to solve her problem. It is something about friendship too.

All these things reminds me about the secondary school's story again. Sigh. It seems like everything are all related. I don't really want the same thing happens again in my life. That is why I choose to be quiet. At least, the least I talk, the least misunderstand I will make.

Anyway, Happy Lunar Birthday------to someone~

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